do you need a map of your life?

are you attached to the way you think something is gonna happen?

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Most of the times when we are stressed, it's usually about the future. A very big chunk of the stress that we have in our lives is coming from us thinking about the future. Oh, how is it gonna be? Uh what am I gonna do? How am I gonna feel? Will I like it? What if I'm making a big mistake? All these things, you know, we can get very attached to the future because we're thinking about it all the time. And um, we're like, I wanna know how this will be, I wanna know how this will happen, and then we start making plans, you know. People make plans, people make vision boards. Uh, and since we are in the topic of vision boards, actually, we're not in the topic of vision boards, I've just mentioned vision boards, and since we're already here, I hope you know that you just don't make a vision board and just stay there. You have to work towards what you want, you have to put in the effort, you have to do something. The same with praying, you just don't pray and then not do anything, you know. You have your part to do, it's a partnership. You have your part to do, and God has a part to do. So, most of the times we make plans about how we want things to happen, and then we get very attached to those plans, you know. I, for one, do not like timestamped plans. I do not timestamp my plans. I mean, you know, those people who are like, oh, by this age, I would have done this, this, this, this. By this month, I would have done this, this, this, this. I mean, there are things that you can timestamp. I mean, there are some goals that you can timestamp like for things that you want to do. But then most of the times I feel like that brings more harm than good, especially when it comes to personal life. I'm not saying like company goals or anything, or things that are like outside of personal life, like work issues, like you can't control that. I mean, if at your job they want you to have a certain plan, you you just have to have that. But then also, like, take my advice with a grain of salt because you are an adult and you know that there's some things that you can put a timestamp on. You can be like, I'm gonna do this job for one year, save up money for something, and then quit this job. You can do that, you know. But then what I want to talk about today is that so many people, so many of us, we get so attached to our plans, or we get so attached to the vision, or we get so concerned about how something is happening and if it aligns with the way we think it should be happening. Being in the industry that I am in, the entertainment industry, I have come to learn that nothing usually ends up being exactly like the way you pictured it in your brain. And I'm not saying that to discourage anyone, I'm saying that to be like your imagination can only do so much. You know what I'm saying? You can, I mean, you can imagine something, but then like don't be too attached to the way it's going to happen, you know. For example, like once you start out shooting something, it usually ends up being like very different to what you pictured, you know, in your head before you started shooting. Because there's so many things that happen in the middle. Okay, most of the times when we make a plan, we're like, oh, I want this thing to be like this, I'm gonna go there, it's gonna go like this, this, this, I'm gonna say this, they're gonna say this. We usually get very attached to the way we're like, okay, that's how it's it's going to be, that's how it's going to happen. But there's so many things in between. So many things can change. Our whole conversation, a whole work day can change just based on the fact that you did not have enough sleep, or because you're irritable, you know. I could say the same thing to you that I said on a day that you had a good eight hours of sleep, and you're gonna be mad when I say it to you on a day that you didn't sleep well. You know, a lot of things. That's why we shouldn't really rely on feelings because feelings are very fecal. I mean, they do tell us something, but they're very fecal. So I had a huge realization. We don't need a map of our lives. You don't need a map that is gonna be like, you're gonna get here and you're gonna do this, this, this, this, and it will be this, this, this, and you'll feel this, this, this, and you'll meet this, this, this, and then you go here and then you'll do this, and you'll feel this, and then you go here and here and here and here. I mean, part of what makes life so exciting is the fact that we don't really know. I don't know what's gonna happen tomorrow. I have expectations, but I don't really know for sure. I have an imagination of what it might be, but I don't really know for sure. And that's what keeps us exciting. We have things that we love to do, they get us out of bed, but we're not so sure how it's going to be. We have a big influence on how things are going to be, but not exactly how things would be, you know? So if you are very fixated on this uh way that you're imagining something, if it doesn't end up happening like that, you're gonna be so disappointed, you're gonna be sad, and you you will end up not seeing the good things that have happened to you because it didn't happen the way you wanted it to. Like sometimes I hear people and they're like, Well, I thought it was gonna be this, this, this, this. And I'm like, this is so much better than what you thought it was gonna be. But hey, what can I say? You're not enjoying it because it's not as exactly as you wanted it to be. I mean, what did you expect? Like, you have not been there. Have you been there? Are you a time traveler? No. Have you gone to the day after tomorrow? Have I gone to the day after tomorrow? No, I haven't. I don't even know how tomorrow is going to be. So I can't be like, it's gonna be like this, this, this. And I understand this whole thing about people being like manifesting or believing, having faith. Here's my observation though. I'm gonna tell you something. There are so many concepts, so many things that people say, and they have like words for them online, and I can't help but feel this way. Every time I'm like, people are just finding different ways to say faith. I'm like, people will say anything but faith. I'm like, there's so many words, and there's there's so many words that are just saying the same thing. Oh the Lulu, or like I saw one which I'm like, I don't like the way it's being worded. It's like I will I will achieve this because I am crazy, and I'm like, what I get I get what you're trying to say, but hey, I don't think it's because you're crazy. Like just say faith. I mean, I mean, people can say whatever they want to say, but it's just so funny to see how the concept of faith can be used in very and when I say faith, I'm not saying uh faith as in religion, I'm saying faith as in faith, the belief of the things that we cannot see, you know, but we're believing that they have happened or they will happen. That that faith. Yeah, so let me tell you something. This this the past 48 hours have not been the most beautiful for me. I've been so tired. I am tired right now, and I'm so glad that I can even say that because I am one of those people who uh if it was not for God, if it was not for the way my the way things are happening in my life at the right time, if I got everything that I wanted immediately, like quickly I had everything that I wanted, or I got the chance to do everything that I'm doing, I would probably be one of those people where it's like, oh, he got hospitalized out of exhaustion. I am that type of person, you know? So the last many years of my life, I have not been able to say I am tired. Like I would just throw it around because it's like sometimes if you are gonna yawn, you might as well like pair that with like, oh, I'm so tired, you know, even though you're not really tired. And um, so it's it's a it's I love that I can say I'm tired. A friend of mine told me that his therapist told him to admit when he's tired and say it. And he encouraged me to do the same thing a long time ago, though. So it's great that I I say that. I left yesterday for the whole day, went to Warsaw, I had some work stuff to do. I had been preparing since the day before yesterday. I did my face mask the day before yesterday, I did my eye patches on the train, and I couldn't sleep. Like I was supposed to sleep very early because my my train was leaving at 6 26 a.m. I had to leave early. I mean, you can just imagine if my train is leaving at 6 and I have to get ready and shower and and and pack all the things I need, it's gonna take a while. So I woke up at 4 and I didn't really sleep well. I went to sleep late. I went to sleep at 11 p.m. And that is late if you if you need to be on the train by 6.26. And it just so happens that the same day that I wanted to sleep, my neighbors started making noise. Like the only people that even talk loudly in this whole neighborhood decided that you know what, that was the day. And I'm like, it's a Sunday. People are gonna wake up on Monday, have some empathy. Anyways, this reminds me of of of like some times in my life when I was like making noise with my friends, and I'm like, is this how people feel? anyways, so they were like making noise all night. For some reason, it was distracting me, even though sometimes it wouldn't distract me. I used to sleep in classes in the middle of all the noise, I would like sleep and dream. So yeah, it affected me and I didn't sleep so well, but surprisingly, I woke up not tired, or at least I thought so. Anyways, I woke up at four, got ready, I was in the train, I did my eye patches in the train, I was reading, I got there. Now I feel like looking back, I was attached to the way that day was gonna go, that particular thing that I was going to do was gonna go, you know? And so when it was a little bit different, I was like, oh, like I didn't expect that. Um and it's like, wait, that's how life is. Like you you meet things and you deal with them when they're there, because I believe everything comes to you with the grace to do that thing at that time, you know. If it's a Tuesday and you have to study so hard because you're 12 and you have an exam, you're gonna have the grace for that time. If you're nine years old and you're trying to study like you're 12, I don't know why I decided to use this uh analogy, because I was thinking of myself as a child because I used to study so hard. Even just like let me let me just go back to like let's say high school. I used to study hard in high school. That grace was for that time. I don't think I can study the way I used to study right now. I don't even study. That is the truth. I don't think I can do that because I don't have the grace for it at this moment, and even if I do it, it's gonna be different because it's another moment. So once you try to live in a moment that the grace for that moment is not there, because that moment comes with its grace, the the ability for you to do that thing at that time. And so if you don't have it, you're gonna be going through it without being fully equipped, and that's why you'll be scared. So I was thinking about a way that it was gonna happen, but then when there were like some tweaks here and there, as do most work things, I was like, oh, mind you, these are like like it's not even something that like will affect you. Nothing, nothing, it's just that it was very minor to the point I'm like, wait, how am I even still dealing with such kind of things at this time of my life? I was like, shouldn't I just be okay with like things not going exactly as I pictured them? And I didn't have this issue for a long time, but I realized that it was that was the case yesterday. So because of that, I was not feeling very great. I was not feeling very great. And um, I finished the work thing, I finished very early because I got there very early, and we were able to finish quickly, and so I left, I went on my walk around the city, and disclaimer the way we feel about things, the way we act, the way we do things, that's why sometimes you're like, why did I do that? Why did I even think that? It's because feelings depend on so many things, it depends on how much sleep you had. Did you eat well? Have you been eating enough fruits and vegetables and healthy food in the last in the past like few days, so that you have enough probiotics and your gut is like in a good state? Because I watched a documentary on Netflix about the gut and how it's very important in the bacteria in your gut, how it's very important for them to be there, and how certain foods can increase that, and how it's all tied to your like mental well-being. And so that depends on whether if you're eating well or not. So if you've been eating well, if you've been drinking enough water, are you dehydrated? For me, is my skin dry? Because if my skin is dry, oh honey, it's gonna be something different. I I don't know. Do I have my refreshments? Can I take my tote bag, go to the bathroom, wash my face, you know, reapply something on my face, reapply my sunscreen, uh, maybe take a little bit of deodorant, chew a gum so I feel fresh. Can I do that? You understand? I'm trying not to be so attached to like being able to refresh in the middle of the day because sometimes I'm like, I won't always have my thought bag with all the things that I need, you know, and I need to be okay when that's the case. Anyways, it depends on all those things, it depends on so many things, the way you feel about situations. So have that in mind in your day-to-day life, even when you're making decisions, like it's very important. That's why they say sleep on it. Because when you sleep and you wake up, you're fresh, you can make better decisions. And some people will pressure you. Actually, I used to do this to my mom. If I would want to ask her for money for something when I was young, I would go at the time when she's like sleepy and it's like it's like at night, and I know like she's not concentrating, and then she would give me whatever amount I was asking for, and that that's like a trick. And people use that, people will get you to sign the contract at like I don't know, when you're tired and dehydrated and hungry and all these things, and um, because they know you're more likely to say yes, because your brain is like, I can't compute all that, you know what? It's okay. So I think this played a role because I didn't sleep very well, and um, even though I didn't feel it, but I didn't sleep very well. So maybe that's why that little change, that little tweak in my day that had happened, had given me like it was like a it was a small, a really small tweak. It was more of like a direction or a knot, you know. But for me, it was like it was the straw that broke the camel's back. Is that how you say it? Yeah, it was the last straw for me. Uh mind you, this is like a this is like a like something that I should almost expect. It's like, what? Like, how is this your last straw? But that's what happens if you're already not in a good state. Because also the day before, like my eye was like, I told you about like in the past few days I'd been dealing with like my eye swelling, like my eyelids were swelling. I don't know why, and it gets worse every time I go out. I think it's the it's because of the weather. Maybe it's pollen, maybe it's spring allergies or whatever. So my self-esteem was also like maybe not the highest, and um because I found out like not so long about this thing that I was going to do, and then I tried to get people to like do my hair, and then I try and I couldn't get anyone because it was last minute, and then I went there, and so I think I feel like I had a lot of things, a lot of things that were like piling up, piling up, and then after that, I was walking around the city and I broke down. I you know, I broke down because I was like, I thought it was gonna be this, this, this, this, this, but then it's this, this, this. Like, I didn't expect this and that and that. And you know, once you have had so many things happen, you get to a point where you're like, I don't even know at this point. I don't even know. I'm just not feeling okay. I just don't know what at this point what's going on. So I was walking around this beautiful Warsaw city. I had fun, don't get me wrong. I had so much fun. I was walking as I always do. This is the way I explore places. I walk extensively and I trust my taste. If I see something that to me is like, wow, this is beautiful, this is interesting, that is what I will explore. That is where I will go to eat, that is where I will go and do something, that is where I'll go and sit, that's where I'll go get coffee, breakfast, whatever it is. I am not the one to look up places, you know. I'm not the one to be like, oh, I'm going to this place. Let me see what are the places I can go. No, I am the one to be like, where is the city center? Or where is the place where I can walk and find things? And then I go, I take the walks and I discover those places myself. Because I believe this thing. Like all those places that are online and people are like recommending them to you and being like, oh, this is the place to go, this is the thing to do. There are people who had to do those things for them to know that they're good, and reviews are very good. But I feel like for me, I just love finding these gems and I love like experiencing because we you can get again, this is this is a full circle moment. Because once you plan and you're like, we're gonna stick to this, this, we're gonna go here and then here, and then here, and then here, and then here. Most of the times people go through half of their travel schedules, schedules. Is it schedule or whatever? I was talking to somebody today and I was I was having the same issue, whatever. So, because it's like that's not how things always go, you never really know. That's why, in this question of do you need a map for your life? The answer is no. You don't need a map for your life, you need a compass, you just need to know the direction, you know. You need a compass that will tell you, hey, this is north, this is your direction, this is where you you need you wanna go. This is you know, you don't need a map to tell you that, like, this is the road you'll take, and then you'll get here. Oh, now you're on this road, so you'll take this road, you'll take a right corner, you'll take a left, you'll take, and I feel like this is what most people try to do in their lives, and that's why they get so frustrated, and that's why I got so frustrated. And so I didn't have a map, I was just walking around. I saw this beautiful South Vietnamese restaurant called Spice and You. I went inside, and let me give you a little hack. If you go to a restaurant, particularly in the afternoon, ask them if they have a lunch menu. I'm not even kidding you guys. The difference between the the lunch menu and the normal menu is profound. Like, if you get the lunch menu, they give you like, you know, because it's lunch, you'll find like the menu is not separated because you know how they separate menus, it's like salads, or they're like salads, sides, main dishes. This, this, this, but then if it's like a lunch menu, they put these things together, you know. So I got this like rice with pork, with a salad on the side, and then it also came with green tea. It was amazing. It was amazing. Now, I guarantee you, if you try to order these things separately, the math will not be adding up to the price that they have for lunch. So, this is a this is a little trick that I have. This is a little trick that I do. It's not a trick, actually. It's just like just I don't know why people don't think of that. And I don't know why, honestly, some restaurants would not say if they have a lunch menu. I'm like, shouldn't you be telling me if you have a lunch menu? Some of them write outside, like lunch, this, this, this, and some of them have like a special thing where like today lunch is this, or you can pick from this. And so I picked from the lunch menu. I ate, I read a little bit. It was fun, it was amazing. Overall, it was a fun day. It was a fun day. I stayed there for like some time. I made an Instagram post, and I, you know, and this this was like now looking back. I probably shouldn't have done that because they went on Instagram. And whenever I make a post is when I like also stay a little bit on social media. And I was it was coach it's Coachella season. Everyone was like posting about Coachella, Coachella, Coachella, Coachella, Coachella, Coachella, Coachella. Anyways, which is great. It's always great to see the Coachella videos. But then again, when you're in that state, social media is not what you need. And then later I walked, and then later in the evening, I went to this place. I went to this Korean restaurant called uh what is it called? It has the same name as like the the new BTS album. And I know this because I have a friend who's like a massive BTS fan. Let me check my photos. What is the place called? Arirang. It's called Arirang. And I think, yeah, I think that's what the BTS album is also called. I don't know. Or maybe it sounds the same. Or maybe it is the same. I went to this Korean restaurant called Arirang and I had mandu soup. It was amazing. But what I didn't tell you is that I didn't tell you two things. I got there so early I had breakfast at this beautiful breakfast cafe situation where they were like squeezing fresh orange juice from the oranges. If you don't know that, that is the way to my heart. The easy way to get me to get into a stranger's car is if they're squeezing fresh orange juice. Like I see them take the oranges, put them in that machine, and then put them in these cute little bottles. They had like green juice and everything, but like I got the orange juice because I could see them squeezing the oranges. I got the orange juice, I got this sandwich. It was like this ham sandwich, I think. It was really nice. This was such a chic place. And then I also got a latte. That was in the morning, and then I went to do this the thing that brought me there in the first place. But during the day when I was taking a walk, I started reflecting on how I thought what I went to do was gonna be and how it ended up being. And if you really think of it, it's like there is no reason for me to be that attached to the way I wanted it to be. There is really no reason. It's like a situation where nothing went wrong. It's it was just you know how sometimes you just feel about things, anyways. And so it just had me, I was being very negative. I was walking around, actually, I don't know, let me not say I was not being negative, I was not feeling well like emotionally, considering all the things that I've told you. And so also I was having imposter syndrome a lot, so I was walking around the city and I was like crying, but I was wearing my sunglasses and uh nobody could tell. And then I went to this shop and I got soragamis. I also have saw gummies right now. I love saw gummies, I love haribo. When I was in Munich, Germany, I went into the Haribo store and I was like, why don't we have a Haribo store in Lublin? Ah, oh my god. I've not seen a haribo store even in Warsaw. I'm not sure if it's if we have them in Poland, probably somewhere. But Haribo is everywhere, but like a Haribo store is like an experience for somebody who loves Haribo. So I was like, and for some reason I love whimsy. I love whimsy in life. So when I was crying and I was wearing my sunglasses, I was like, wait, I look chic. Because I was like, these people can't even tell if I'm crying. Which reminded me of a song in Rey's new album where she says that she's wearing her cat-eyed sunglasses so that she looks chic when she's crying in a in a random street in France, Paris. And then I took my airpods and then I started listening to Ray's new album. This music may contain hope, and I really did get hope. That was the right moment. I mean, I I kept on crying as I was walking, but I did find hop. There was so much hope in that album. By the way, I listened to Ray's album. This music may contain hope. Yeah, I love that album, it's very uplifting. And so I later came to the conclusion that it was because I was so attached to the way I thought it was gonna happen. I was like having a map, essentially. I was like, this is the map. I'm in this road, I'm gonna take a right, I'm gonna take a left, and then I will walk, and then I'll do this, this, this, this. And then if when it didn't happen, because we don't need maps, we never know how it's gonna be. I I all I I highly believe that if you try to draw a map of your life, you're gonna it's gonna be endless. It's gonna be so huge. I don't think there is enough space for that because there's so many decisions that we make every single day, and things will go different if even one thing is changed, you know. Uh, like if you reach at this stage and you do this, it will be this, this, this. If you do this, it will be this. If you do this, it will be this. If you do A, B, C, like you know, if you do A, it will end up like this. If you do B, there's a different result from all those. They may be similar, but they're they're different. So trying to have a map is highly unrealistic, very unrealistic, and it's not catered to human beings, you know. Sometimes I see people who like time-stamp their goals, or you know, those people online who are like, oh, by the end, it's a good thing, but they're like, by the end of a certain date, I want this, this, this, this, and I'm gonna be sharing my journey. And I'm like, I don't know. Like, most of the times it usually works for people, but then it's like, hey, there's so many ways this thing could happen. There is a million ways for you to get there. That's what you just need to know the direction. You just need to know the direction of where you're heading to. There's so many ways that you could take to get somewhere. So if you have like a single map where it's like, this is the way I'm following, this is the way I'm going, that's that's not that's not good. That's gonna bring you so much frustration. And because you're not you're not in control of everything that happens to you. And I think that's a very important message for all of us to know and realize, because otherwise you're gonna be frustrated. This is this is this is usually not the case for me. But I guess yesterday was a day where I was like susceptible to feeling that way because of everything that had happened before, and uh the days leading up to that. But it was a great day, but you know what? There's always light at the end of the tunnel, even if you know the direction, still have a positive expectation because there's always something that you're gonna be looking forward to. Anyways, I got home and I found that my book I had ordered uh Michael Jackson's book, Moonwalk. I ordered it online at this website called Awesome Books. I ordered it and they said it's used, but I didn't know. I thought it's just a normal book. When the when I arrived back home, it was really late, it was like 11 p.m. So when I got back home, I saw that there's like a package waiting for me, and I took it and I was like, wait, why is this bigger than I expected? And I think it also came earlier, no, yeah, earlier, because I was expecting it around a few days to come, and I was like, this is bigger. I don't know, maybe they gave me an extra book, or maybe they put it in a box, and then I opened it. Turns out I have one of the early releases of the book, and this is first edition because the book was released in 1988, but in the same year it had been reprinted eight times. So this particular book is was released in 1989, was printed, not released, was printed in 1989, and it's like I was texting my friend yesterday who is a massive, massive, massive Michael Jackson fan, and I wanted to read, and this just came perfectly because like I wanted to read Michael Jackson's memoir, but then also like the Michael Jackson film is gonna be out, and yesterday in Warsaw the posters were everywhere, I'm not even kidding, everywhere. And I think I'm gonna finish read the book before I watch the film, or maybe maybe we'll see. Maybe let's not make a map, let's not make a map of how it's going to be. By the way, don't take this into like the extreme balance, it's all about balance in life. So I was texting my friend. Let me see. Yeah, it's it's a UK print, it has like it smells old, it has that like old book smell, kind of like damp. It's like a vintage 80s original. And um, I was doing some research online, it because it was released in the UK, it has like the dust jacket. If you don't know what a dust jacket is, is is you know, you know, when a book has like that like cover, but it's like removable, you know, it has that. So apparently that's like very common in the UK, or maybe for this book, for this particular book, the ones released in the UK had the dust jacket, at least that's what it says online. So I was very happy because I was not expecting it to be like that. It's like a big book. I thought it's like one of those like small, like uh books that were released like later on. I didn't know it was like it's like really good quality. The photos inside are like glossy photos, they're not just printed on the on the on the paper like the other books. It's it's a really good book. And I was like, you know what? This book has like the old smell, it has the old smell, and I'm like, is this gonna make me have flu? And I was like, what an honor. What an honor to be like I have flow because I have a vintage 80s original first edition 1989 Michael Jackson copy, 1989 print. Oh, it was released in 1988 and it was reprinted eight times alone in that year. That's how successful the book was. I mean, it's Michael Jackson. I am so excited. I started reading Michael Jackson's book a little bit when I was one some time ago when I was also going to Warsaw for some work stuff. I started reading it on my phone, but then I paused a little bit to finish reading some other books that I was reading, and then I decided that I want to read it physically, and that's why I ordered the book, and that's what I will do. And then just made my day, and then this whole day I have been thinking about that a lot, and also I was like, I went on social media, I was like looking up Coachella videos, my feed was full of Coachella everywhere, everywhere. And I saw this one woman, she says something very important. She was like, take inventory of how things are making you feel. If you keep doing something and you keep feeling like it's stealing or killing or destroying something in your life, it's not a good thing. Like, if if take inventory, and that's that's the advice that I'm gonna leave myself with. Take inventory. And I realize this whole like map thing, it's like have a positive expectation, but then again, understand that God works in mysterious ways. There's that there is so many things, there's a million ways something that will can happen, something can happen, and just know that at the end of the day, all things work out together for good. Every it usually ends up to be for your good. You might not see it at the moment, but things always end up working out for your good. And so take your attention into that, take your attention into like being positive about situations, don't be like, oh, this was not exactly as how I wanted it to be, or this was not exactly as how I saw it on Pinterest, by the way. That's like I feel like that's a very relatable thing for people to be like, uh, so I tried this thing that I saw on Pinterest, and it doesn't look exactly like I wanted it to look. And I'm like, you know what? It's good every once in a while to recreate a full outfit from Pinterest, but that's not the way I go about doing things. I'm like, look at something and then find inspiration from that, and then do it in your own authentic way. If you try to replicate every single piece, I don't know. Most of the times it it's it usually ends up being like, okay, it's great, but it's like it's almost like there is no soul to it or something. It's so weird how we can feel that. It's so weird how I like I can read an article because I read a lot of articles. I probably read like I don't know how many articles in a month, and like just the first paragraph, I'm like, this is AI, this is AI, and I feel like I notice more of that because I read books, because I interact with like the real art, I can know. I'm like, this is AI, and I have a friend who is like, I will never notice in a million years, and um, it's like that. And I have a friend who watches who has social media on his phone all the time, and I'm always sending, like, for some reason, okay, this is like I'm admitting something here. I most of the times I see like animal videos, oh like a bear. Like, you remember this one, like there was this someone was in their car and there was like this big bear chasing them, and I was like, Oh my god, this is so scary. I didn't know bears are this big. I sent it to my friend, he was like, This is AI. I was like, I didn't know, I I truly didn't know if this is AI, and then I saw this other one, it was a lion, and it's like many, many, many like it's getting better and better, and sometimes it gives me an existential crisis. I'm not even kidding. Every after three days, I'm like, what is happening? When it comes to humans, I can tell, but then it keeps getting better every day, and then they show you something and they're like, Did you see that? This is the eye. There's this one lady who is like, Guess, is this real or AI? I'm like, I don't know. Everything looks real to me, everything looks real to me. And then I'm like, I don't know where this will go, and I don't know. So I keep sending like AI videos of like uh animal AI videos to my friend for some reason, I don't know why. And then he's like, This is the I, this is the AI, and I'm like, Yeah, I don't know why I am acting like a 60-year-old. But, anyways, that's the thing, and he notices that, but he doesn't notice it when it comes to text. I notice, oh my god, you used an AI caption, I noticed an AI article, I noticed an AI message, I noticed, and I don't know, it's like I see it everywhere. Sometimes it gives me an existential crisis, especially when I go on social media, because if I watch one video about people explaining how like AI is making people senile and slow, and I see that, and then I'm like, oh, I interact, like I read the comments, I guess I stay longer on the video, and then they start giving me the same type of thing. And this is the thing, like social media is really exhausting, it's very like, oh, I don't even know. Like, I and mind you, this is someone who doesn't have social media on his phone at all times. I only download it to post, and then I stay there a little bit after I post, or I stay there before, and then I post at the end to justify why I was there all that time. And anyways, but then it's like you let me the best way for me to describe this to you, it's like you know how people get drunk and they're like, Oh, I have a hangover. That's how I feel, that's how I feel after I use social media, and it's crazy that I I keep going back. I mean, I am posting, but then it's like there's this that that because I have a limit, and there are times that like once my limit is done and then I leave immediately, I feel so no, I don't feel bad, I feel okay because there's a buzz. But once I keep on overstaying my limit, I feel horrible. And I'm feeling horrible as I keep interacting with it, and sometimes it's like it's so robotic, I can't really stand artifice most of the times, but it's so robotic, and it's so I'm so aware of all the little tweaks and changes that are being made to make it more and more addictive and more and more profitable. And so it's like, and I'm I'm I'm very aware of all the the pretense that is going on. I'm like, this is not authentic, this is like you know, I don't know. I see all that, maybe that's why it's exhausting to me. And so sometimes I like a certain type of content. By the way, I've said this so many times, I sound like a broken record. I don't like using the word content because for me, for example, that's because I do what other people call content, but I'm like, hey, this is actually like this is my life, these are the photos that I take as I keep on living my life, as I go about with my life, and so I am basically my social media is for me because even when I post, I use the song that I was listening during that time, and okay, I guess it's just not for me, it's for the people who also follow me or anyone, but I am truly sharing what is going on in my life because I love photography. Every single time I take a photo, I take it well, you know, because I love photography and I enjoy how you how how photos can tell a story, and so I share that. It's almost like the best thing is like if you know, like the photos that you take to your friend throughout the week, that is what a dump is to me, you know, even you know, it's like that's the idea. It's like if you as you keep doing things in your life, and if you love photography, you capture this thing. So for me to call it content, I have a very hard time with that. I'm like, no, this is my life. This is my first Instagram post, is when I got my first iPhone. I got my first iPhone today, evening, for and the next night, the next day by nighttime, I had a post up, and that was my first post ever. And I've been posting ever since. I have my life, I've documented my life because I love photography and I will continue to love photography and I enjoy sharing life. For you, for me to call it content. I have a very hard time. That's why I have a very hard time with the word content. But then, anyways, sometimes I will like a certain like content for the lack of a better word, about books, and the next thing I know, it's books everywhere, reels about books and photos of books and books and books, and I'm like, this is so robotic. I am a human being, I love books, but I also love food, but I also love to laugh, and I also love friendship and and travel and all these things. And it's like, why are you trying to box me? And like, I I keep finding an issue everywhere I turn on this app, and I'm like, anyways, guys, not to be so negative. I love social media. I've had so many great opportunities from social media. I enjoy laughing, I enjoy the community, I enjoy the comments, I I enjoy all that, but it's balance is very important, and I think that's why I really resonated with the idea that we need to pay attention and take inventory of the way things make us feel. And don't worry, I have some plans in place about how I'm going to handle this situation. Some have already been in the wax and are still in the wax, and some are coming soon. And um, thank you so much. Always remember that you don't need a map, you need a compass. You only need to know the direction of where you're heading to. You don't need to know every single nook and crack. You don't need to know every single thing that you're gonna encounter. And with that, I love you so much. Thank you so much for listening to this podcast. Love you.